Saturday, June 27, 2009

I am a hopeless romantic...

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'”

I wish I could take credit for thinking of this and actually publishing this, but I cannot. However, after stumbling upon this earlier I keep going back to it and rereading it and truly connecting to it. It's funny how, when I look at my life just a month or two ago, how cynical I had become about ever finding someone in my life that will make me happy. I was completely cynical about finding the "perfect guy." I have been looking 32 years for the perfect guy never stopping to ask myself if he really exists. I never stopped to actually ask myself what exactly does that phrase "the perfect guy" mean? Does he have to have a "perfect" body? Does he have to have a "perfect" personality? I don't think so. Don't get me wrong, I have not lowered my standards by any means, but as I have aged (ha, aged) I have realized that by no means am I going to find perfection. But what I am going to find is someone who is "perfect" for me. I am going to find someone who is honest, caring, trusting, focused, driven, determined, loving, fatherly, dedicated, fun, devoted, and in love and there for me. Have I found that yet? Is there one person that exhibits all those traits? Two months ago I would have said no, not only no but hell no! But as I am venturing into the world of a life without so much skepticism and cynicism, I am realizing there may be someone in my life that may exhibit all those traits.

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