Tuesday, July 16, 2013

I am 30-something and...

I am 30-something and...

  • insecure
  • uncomfortable with direct eye contact 
  • unsure of myself
  • uncomfortable in my own skin
  • cynical
  • antagonistic 
  • emotionally weak
  • emotionally scarred 
  • pessimistic 
  • hard on myself 
  • controlling 
  • possessive 
  • jealous
  • hard to love 
  • closed off
  • moody
  • passive-aggressive 
  • skeptical
  • dissatisfied 
  • sarcastic
  • bossy
I am 30-something and...
  • hopeful
  • a hopeless romantic
  • optimistic
  • independent 
  • witty
  • ready for love 
  • strong
  • dependable 
  • a great friend 
  • a perfectionist 
  • forgiving 
  • open-minded
  • caring
  • creative
  • thoughtful

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Can We Ever Really Expect the Unexpected?

Sometimes things happen in life that we don't expect, and sometimes people come into our lives unexpectedly. Even more, sometimes people come into our lives precisely at the right time to reassure us that not all is bad in the world and there are true, honest, genuine people in this world. I can't look at my life right now and say I expected any of what has happened in the past couple of weeks, months, and even years. All these events have been unexpected....unexpected blessings. So can we ever really expect the unexpected? I guess everyone expects good things to happen in their lives...or do they? Or do we expect the worst while hoping for the best?

As I sit and think about the meaning of that phrase to "expect the unexpected," it really is a difficult one to make meaning of. Should we really expect things to happen? Doesn't this lead to over-thinking and overanalyzing? Instead of expecting certain events to happen, shouldn't we pray for the possibility of good things to happen in our lives and the lives of our loved ones? I wasn't expecting someone to walk into my life three weeks ago and restore my faith in humanity and men in general. I prayed for the possibility of a good man walking into my life who would rebuild trust and faith that I had lost in ever getting my happy ending, show me what honesty is, and allow me to be vulnerable without hesitation. But never did I expect those things....they all came to me unexpectedly.

I can't say or even anticipate where this road leads, but at the moment, it's refreshing...